MishhMystery

I wanted to be yours so I changed... How I spoke How I got ready How I dressed How I looked How I ate How I displayed my emotions How I put on makeup How I treated myself How I acted How I thought How I worked How I slept But none of this was good enough for you So maybe I should just change How I feel

I don't like living here I always live in fear I put on a fake smile That only lasts for a little while I act like everything is okay As I suffer through the day I lie awake every night Knowing that I'm not alright I can't do this anymore I pick myself up off the floor I walk over to the next room Which is me and my sister's bathroom I take the bottle of medicine in the top right drawer I open the bottle and spread the pills across the counter One, two, three, four.. How much do I have to take for me not to exist anymore? I grab a handful and take them all I can no longer see the wall My eyes close and it's the end No more sadness I have to p